跑不快又没脑，不美不可爱也不温柔，家事一团糟。没用没用...

又开始伤害自己的我，几时才会停止？这会变成习惯吗？

我是不会应许任何人打乱我的人生的，我的规划，会一一实行。我的目标，会全都达成。与时间竞赛，一定会很好玩。

A Perfectionist

18th of March was not a good day for me. Everything went wrong since I stepped in Sun with Moon.
1st, I sent the food to the wrong table, it was my fault that I didn't double check with my colleague with the table number as she passed the paper to me.
2nd, I was so clumsy that I spilled some hot green tea on the table as I was trying to move the cup away to serve the food to the customer.
3rd, I almost hurt my manager when he was trying to serve down the food for me... I almost lost my balance on holding the tray. What can happen if the tray drops? My manager might scald his hand...
4th, by this time, I should have kill myself, full of guiltiness at heart, just hoped that it will be fine for the rest of the day... But the tray drop in front of me as well as the customer... Everything was broken... I was stunned for a seconds... What am I doing? What am I thinking? After that, I was told to change my apron and I rushed to the toilet to clean myself... Was so angry of myself... For breaking my principle, for not doing my job well... I should have be strong, not to cry, but again I broke my principle, I cried... What am I doing? What have I done?
I just want to make it perfect... I just want them to enjoy but instead I made it worse. How fail can I be...

And to the person that laugh at me when my tray dropped... I believe in Karma... You know what you've done.

月光下，我独自静思。
为何人间世事无常。

Rainy Day...

下雨了，枯叶随雨水而落。
天色暗了，气温低了，不见月光，被乌云盖了。
心情差了，闷闷不乐，心怀心事，但无人能解，怎么办？泪水也随雨水落下，无奈，只希望雨过天晴。

Attitudinal Healing+++My Life after O's

I'm supposed to feel angry, cursing the person who stole my Adidas track shoes but I try NOT to be angry... Why? Because I'm trying so hard to control my anger, even if I angry, my shoes won't run back by itself, even if I curse, who the one that will suffer? I don't even know who's that thief. So what's the point... I'll just stay calm...

Practising Compassion...

My Life after O's

What should I say? I found jobs after O's. 1st -> IT fair as promoter ; 2nd-> Join Evergreen and become a server in MBS but I don't work alot under Evergreen, it just merely 2 days and I can't get any slots from them anymore... So I found the 3rd job which is as a runner/ server in a Japanese restaurant in Wheelock Place ( Orchard) the food there are EXPENSIVE but its quite nice, people there are mostly Malaysian and China... they are not bad... except for 1 lady... She just simply like to give me attitude, maybe because she is jealous??? Of what ? I'm not too sure but I think I know what is it...

I did went out after O's, training on Saturday as usual... However I felt rather disappointed because there's only 4 person in my class keep in contact with me...I think everyone should be busy enjoying life after O's right... I'm trying to be positive...I am Positive actually.

Okay. I'm getting my O's result on this coming Monday, which is like 4++ days left, Nervous? Of course, who's not? I just hope that I can score well and enter the School / Course I want. Just hope that I won't disappoint myself... I WANT As'!!! (: