Why am I so competitive? Why do I always hurt myself this way. Why do I always compare myself to the others? Why do you have to be so smart?! You played cards the whole night long, I studied, even If I'm tired, I'm not feeling well I still pull myself up to study, but why, why do you always scored better than me? Because you have the language? Or because you're just a jerk!! I don't hate you, I'm just jealous, I can choose not to but you're always making me hating myself even more. I'm not blaming you but myself but understanding you too well. I'm the suckiest person ever to anyone of you. What a lousy person am I?! HAHAHAHA have I suffered from depression? I doubt so.