Sometimes I really wonder if I have got split personality. Do I have split personality? That was a common question that I always asked myself. I don't understand why I could behaved so differently between the day and night. Who am I really? This was the next question that I would asked myself.
I love going to school because I could study and of course attending my CCA. I'm happy when I'm in school but that's the problem, I changed over the passed few years. I used to be very loud and noisy, I love attracting attention and I don't really love to study but now I love to study so much that I don't really socialise with people around me, I became a person who don't talk much. Why? Am I becoming a nerd? I don't mind being one actually but what's the main reason for me to become speechless? Did I have selective Mutism?
However, I'm active during my training, I chose to talk to people I think that is worth sharing my thoughts and of course my inane jokes. Why? Is it because they are more trustworthy than my classmates? Or is it they understand me more than them?
At night, I became an emotional person, I could cry for anything that touches me, I love talking to the stars or maybe some people name it as satellites. Before dinner, I will speak like an air rifles as according to what my father named but after that I'm close to mute. Again I don't talk. Why? I really don't understand myself... Am I really normal? Is there something wrong with me if I tell you that I love talking to myself? Am I too lonely or do I love myself too much? I'm weird, in what way? How could I explain this? Can someone please help me? Once again, who am I?
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